Just Like It Always Was

When I was little, we’re talking under the age of 10, my parents started buying disposable cameras for me when I took up an interest in photography. My dad is a hobbyist photographer, so I’ve always been around it. I have boxes and boxes of film that my mom would take to have developed for me. From a very early age she supported my love of making photos and never once complained about the ridiculous about of film I would go through, so it was no surprise to me when I told her that I wanted to quit my job to raise my children and grow my business she was just as supportive as she was when she’d spend her hard-earned money on developing another roll of film full of photos of trees and flowers.

A few years ago I was gifted a film camera as a “thank you” for mentoring a friend at work, thus reminding me how much I loved film. It’s where I started. The excitement of creating something and waiting for the result is magic. We’re so spoiled with new technology sometimes. Digital cameras can take away from the magic of creating, I believe. It’s so easy to get comfortable when we have instant gratification.

Film is so much more rewarding, I think. It forces me to be intentional with what I am making-studying the scene and my settings to make sure the image comes back to me a week later looking exactly as I imagined it would.

It’s been a lifelong dream of mine to be able to work in a darkroom completing the process of creating a photo on film. Over the last few years I have been studying and reviewing the work of some well known film photographers,Elsa Dorfman, Platon, Sally Mann, and Harry Benson to name a few, and couldn’t help but imagine how it must feel to have a hand in creating images this way. When the 304 Collective opened registration for a film developing and print making workshop, I immediately signed up. There’s something pretty rewarding about giving yourself the gift of living out a lifelong dream.

Before shooting for the course, I shot a roll of color film and sent it out to be scanned. All of the black and white images below were shot by and developed by me, and let me tell ya. Even if they’re not great photos, I still love them because I had a hand in the process.

This is Artifact Motherhood; a collaboration of artists from around the world who have come together to share our stories of the joys and struggles of our journey. Through our writings and visual records, we want to create memories that are more than photographs with dates written on the back. These are the artifacts we are leaving behind for our children and for generations to come. Please check out, Ann,   the next artist in our blog circle, and continue through all the artists until you get back to me